Wednesday, 19 December 2012

Resilient!


Pain – worse than any I’ve experienced before,
Hurt – Not just the body but the soul,
And yet I’m not going to give in,
I know they can’t win as long as I hold on,
I won’t let them have the satisfaction they seek.
They can break my body and use it as they will,
But my soul? They’ll never be able to break it.
I won’t let them have the pleasure of hearing me scream,
I’ll hold on – right till the end,
And then when they think they’ve won,
I’ll be there – my unbroken spirit,
A blatant reminder of their defeat.

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  2. I can guess the terrible and much-publicized incident this poem alludes to.

    Pulled into my husbands’ court by my uncombed hair

    Thrown onto the floor where hundreds of feet touch their thick, red silk

    The flowing carpet rises and falls like the mist of my garden

    I know you are immovable in your rage Shákuni

    Your ego knows no limits, it is like a snake stalking a mouse

    Quietly without remorse in its meager heart

    All eyes watch me cry in anguish as you pull my sari

    To end of this room it flows like the Gaṅgā

    Shining with its thin, gold-laden fabric

    And crippled by your greedy fingers

    Dignified beauty you tossed with your dice

    Human emotions you sacrificed with your heart

    Bring your eyes to mine to see one word: regret

    Ha! You are the nectar’s enemy: regret!

    If you took me then Kṛṣṇa will smite you right now!

    His chakra, a knife for your spineless body

    All my fears that followed me at night with my friends

    Nibbling on their black pearls while I watched the roses rise

    They are you…a shadow that rapes the moon

    I cannot give you my body for it belongs to Keśava!

    My life will one day be returned to his home

    To live as a cowherd while churning milk for his hungry lips

    The boyish smile and curly hair that barely touches his shoulders

    His eyes so wide yet shaped like the waning moon

    Little specks in the corner of both eyes are galaxies unknown to us

    So far away other people exist for whom Kṛṣṇa is their king

    If I am his then he is my king too

    Shákuni, you are the drunken ego, a corrupted seed for humanity!

    My body is a vase holding the virtues of Sūrya

    He touched my spirit to give me a bite of his own

    Disrobing me in front of my husbands and all the Āryas of their kingdom

    is a sacrilege!

    I cry to you to stop this great injustice!

    Can’t you see I have sunken into a sea of distress!?

    No, you are busy drowning my voice with your wicked laughter

    Brahmā gave you a boon that protects your life from any physical or divine harm

    Yet, has he no shame when seeing this monstrous deed?

    Ma! You are Sarvāsuravināśā, come to my rescue!

    Show your terrifying face to this savage

    Make him cower under your crippling stare, ma!

    Turn his limbs into brittle sticks so he will stop treating my honor like a toy.

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