I just wanna Run

Late at night, when I can't sleep,
what is it that makes me wanna weep?
I just feel like running away,
so far, that I even forget my way.
Away from everything and everyone,
I just wanna run, run and run.
Every memory, I wish to leave behind,
each and every person, kind or unkind.
I don't wanna think, just run,
away from everything and everyone.
Restless of this dreary existence,
why am I alive? It just doesn't make sense.
I wish I could run far away,
to escape all that the voices in my head have to say.
I wanna leave behind my life,
I would just run, run and run if I had the choice.

The Poor Girl

A little girl dressed all in rags,
Came and stood by my bags.
When I raised an enquiring glance,
Asking for money was her only stance. 
She stood there, the poor girl,
I couldn't imagine why in the world.
Waiting with an extended hand,
and looking at me with a beseeching glance.
Was she destined to be a beggar ever since she was born?
What was it that made her so forlorn?
She looked fine by all means,
Only poverty was what brought her to ruins.
I contemplated giving her money once,
But wouldn't it spoil the little one?
At an age when she should play and learn rhymes, 
Here was this girl, striving to survive at all times.
But I couldn't imagine how to help her,
Her beseeching eyes asking for anything i could lend her.
But my selfish attitude held me back,
until it was too late to call her back.

The Game

He touched her and it felt wrong,

But he said it's a game and because she didn't know better she went along.

Young and naive, oh how stupid she was,

He told her she should do whatever he wants or it'd be her loss.

And she believed him because she'd been taught to do so,

Listen to her elders and just follow.

Oh yes, she hesitated, she was scared,

But that jerk told her, if she didn't do whatever he said,

A huge sword will cut her into two,

Because that's what happens to those who break the game's rule.

Her little imagination filled colors into his story,

Until she was sure that if she told anyone, she'd be sorry.

He made her believe that it's just a game and she's having fun,

But she'd be dead if she told anyone.

How was she to know that it shouldn't be done?

His touch was creepy, his touch was bad,

She hated it when he told her to sit in his lap.

She just didn't realise that she was the board,

On which he played his stupid game and yes, he scored.

Monsters

Monsters, those on the outside and those inside,

Who do I fear more, the ones that I can or can't brush aside?

The ones that are outside, try their best to hurt me,

Every moment they think of ways to make me unhappy.

But these are the ones whom I can ignore,

They’re petty and they don't matter no more.

But what about my own monsters, that are in my head,

Whose efforts I cannot foil the ones who always think ahead?

They tell me I'm useless, a waste of space,

They tell me people hate me and my face.

And there's nothing I can say that’ll make them shut up,

Coz somewhere deep inside I know they are right and it's not a bluff.

No matter how many times I tell myself otherwise,

They always come and taunt me in a different guise.

They tell me to even stop trying when it's of no use,

Just end my life and put an end to this abuse.

They say it'll be easy, it won't hurt,

All you need is a blade and just one cut.

Let Me Be

Why can't I hate you? Oh why not?
When I so badly want to do so with all I've got.
Why do you intrude upon my thoughts, when you're not a part of my life anymore?
Just stay away, why can't you stay behind the closed door?
I try - trust me, it isn't due to lack of trying,
but no matter what I do, I just end up crying.
For all that was and will never be,
For the I and you that is today, that used to be we.
No, I don't want to be with you,
I know I'll never again be able to.
Then why do I crave all our talks?
Why do I miss our fights and the makeup walks?
I don't want to; trust me I don't,
but my heart? It just won't let me forget you - it won't.
What do I do, to get over you?
So that you just become a name in my past, a person i knew?
How do I stop my heart from skipping a beat,
Every time I hear your name, as if it's a treat.
How do I stop my breath from getting fast,
Every time I remember the moments that didn't last?
After what you did to me, I should hate you,
then why are you still so innocent in my view?
My heart is shattered, the broken pieces still inside,
every time I breathe, the pain makes their presence known alright.
I don't want you in my life, why don't you get lost?
Tell me what do I do, let me know what'll it cost?
Can I bleed your memories away;
will you leave with the blood and not stay?
If it's only death that'll do us apart,
just promise me one thing before I depart.
Do me a favour and go away from my thoughts before my death,
Coz I don't want to die with your name on my breath.